Let me preface this by saying that EVERY shooting hurts my heart, as they say down South, and I do pray for the poor people ...
... but some just hit closer to home
I just happened to catch a blurb while researching another news story : a shooting in a Pathmark in Old Bridge, NJ!!!! ;- More than likely there'll be at least one article blogged, but let me tell you why I'm so upset here and crying my eyes out:
I know this area. It wasn't my regular haunt, no, but I've been in and around that area, surely.
Pathmark??? Know it very well! Still have (somewhere) my Pathmark courtesy card.
A tragedy at a Pathmark brings up the Gail Schoeller (spelling) death kidnapped from a Piscataway Pathmark, at least 15, 20 years ago now, which had ripple effects on my own life ...
Overnight, 24 hour supermarket - honey, that's one of my favorite times to go shopping, ever.
Two killed were kids with lots of promise and there whole lives clean and full of promise, right in front of them. One, Bryan Breen, was a WRITER. And he was still young enough to believe he was going to make it big as a writer. And maybe he would have, too!
And this shooter? One of the quotes from a friend was that he just wasn't right since his mother died five years ago ... man, I hesitate to say that about my beloved father, too, because my complicated and prolonged grieving DOES NOT manifest itself like Terrence Tyler's! but in a small way I understand ...
God have mercy on us all +
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Today's sadness brought to u by Bic
Bic Retractable Velocity Gel in Medium Black, to be exact here
It's not at all my usual pen (a G2, bold) but (a) I was out of a good pen and (b) I didn't have it in me to drive to Wal Mart (cannot find a G2, bold here) and (c) I was in the Lion King, walking right past the school supplies, saw this, ok! give it a go!
No go
Got it home and - the tips are all - mushy! Its like some guy in a forklift hefting the boxes crushed this one (except the package is intact ... hmm) ... anyway - 6.99! you bet I'm returning these babies!
In fact I made it part of my truncated errands today, returning them and
The clerk shook her head. And showed me that they have this invisible teeny tiny CAPS on the covers that you have to pick off with your fingernails!!!
Returned home w/ pens
Returned home sighing and - oh no here comes the sadness wave.
Because things are changing far too rapidly all over the place and I have absolutely no say in it, no ability to affect it change it alter it stop it
There was a big write-up in our paper on how they need poll clerks -especially for the area I live in! Hmm... I did this for oh maybe 10 years, a little better, once, twice a year, whenever there was an election, back in Jersey ... so I have prior knowledge AND hey! the pay is even better than it used to be!
But it bunks up against why I haven't voted in a long time (ironic thing for a former poll clerk to say, right?!)
Because I feel irrelevant, invisible that things change and I have absolutely no say in it, no ability to affect it change it alter it stop it
And I used to be an idealistic I CAN change the world! kid
A looong time ago
It's not at all my usual pen (a G2, bold) but (a) I was out of a good pen and (b) I didn't have it in me to drive to Wal Mart (cannot find a G2, bold here) and (c) I was in the Lion King, walking right past the school supplies, saw this, ok! give it a go!
No go
Got it home and - the tips are all - mushy! Its like some guy in a forklift hefting the boxes crushed this one (except the package is intact ... hmm) ... anyway - 6.99! you bet I'm returning these babies!
In fact I made it part of my truncated errands today, returning them and
The clerk shook her head. And showed me that they have this invisible teeny tiny CAPS on the covers that you have to pick off with your fingernails!!!
Returned home w/ pens
Returned home sighing and - oh no here comes the sadness wave.
Because things are changing far too rapidly all over the place and I have absolutely no say in it, no ability to affect it change it alter it stop it
There was a big write-up in our paper on how they need poll clerks -especially for the area I live in! Hmm... I did this for oh maybe 10 years, a little better, once, twice a year, whenever there was an election, back in Jersey ... so I have prior knowledge AND hey! the pay is even better than it used to be!
But it bunks up against why I haven't voted in a long time (ironic thing for a former poll clerk to say, right?!)
Because I feel irrelevant, invisible that things change and I have absolutely no say in it, no ability to affect it change it alter it stop it
And I used to be an idealistic I CAN change the world! kid
A looong time ago
Why LOVE is making me cry (& its not what u think!)
I was just reading our local paper ...
Now, I live in Virginia, and of course the iconic slogan that has been around for years for this state is "Virginia is For Lovers" <3 To that end, the state of Virginia apparently has this HUGE Love sculpture that travels around the state and "rests" in various places ...
It is coming to my city at the tail end of November.
LOVE will be sitting in front of my town hall (a converted Victorian, with the police station, such as it is, in the back - hey! this is a SMALL TOWN ;) ) and I read that, I read the date, and I burst into tears ;(
Because I love this little town! I love that people wave, know, recognize me & CoCo. I love how even tho it is small there is enough political hijincks going on that I can still get all riled-up ;) I love how - even in this inexpensive little apt that CoCo and I live in - I open my front door and right there - rightthere! - are the mountains, in all there glory!!! I love my apt (ok, I'd make a few changes if I could, but basically - I love it!) which is (of course!) right in this town that I love <3
But my lease is up on November 30th.
And I really can't afford it another year.
And I may just have to move - even might have to leave this town.
So to see LOVE, in a place that I love, that I might have to leave -- well, honey, this just breaks my heart.
I'm trying not to cry ... trying to think that I may just figure out a way to do it at least for another year, because then
Then LOVE wouldn't be so bittersweet.
Now, I live in Virginia, and of course the iconic slogan that has been around for years for this state is "Virginia is For Lovers" <3 To that end, the state of Virginia apparently has this HUGE Love sculpture that travels around the state and "rests" in various places ...
It is coming to my city at the tail end of November.
LOVE will be sitting in front of my town hall (a converted Victorian, with the police station, such as it is, in the back - hey! this is a SMALL TOWN ;) ) and I read that, I read the date, and I burst into tears ;(
Because I love this little town! I love that people wave, know, recognize me & CoCo. I love how even tho it is small there is enough political hijincks going on that I can still get all riled-up ;) I love how - even in this inexpensive little apt that CoCo and I live in - I open my front door and right there - rightthere! - are the mountains, in all there glory!!! I love my apt (ok, I'd make a few changes if I could, but basically - I love it!) which is (of course!) right in this town that I love <3
But my lease is up on November 30th.
And I really can't afford it another year.
And I may just have to move - even might have to leave this town.
So to see LOVE, in a place that I love, that I might have to leave -- well, honey, this just breaks my heart.
I'm trying not to cry ... trying to think that I may just figure out a way to do it at least for another year, because then
Then LOVE wouldn't be so bittersweet.
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