Friday, November 30, 2012

The 4's

Name 4 jobs you have had in your life:
     1- Customer Service Representative
     2- Counter person, McDonald's
     3- Retail sales
     4- Temporary clerical
Name 4 movies you would watch over and over:
     1- Them!
     2- 1994 edition of Little Women
Name 4 Places you have lived:
     1- Elkton, Va
     2- Edison, NJ
     3- Castine, Me
     4- Bloomingdale, Ga
Name 4 of your favorite foods:
     1- Spaghetti///Pasta///Italian!
     2- GOOD Chinese food
     3- French Toast///breads!
     4- Devil Doggys
Name 4 things you always carry with you:
    1- Purse
    2- Cigarettes 
    4- My heart

Special Santas help special needs kids enjoy Christmas

Special Santas help special needs kids enjoy Christmas

Friday, November 23, 2012

Tagged by Rach of ThisItalianFamily.Wordpress.Com

1. Who is your favorite philosopher? I have to agree w/ Rachel when she wrote the following answer: Absolutely Jesus. During His time on Earth He was counter-cultural in so many huge ways. He not only loved the outcasts, He literally reached out His holy hands and touched them. He not only spoke to women, He gave them dignity. He taught about love and mercy, forgiveness and equality. Best of all, He brought us face to face with God and told us that we too can call him Father. That, my friends, is awesome. :)
2. What is your favorite number?  I have several ... 8 and 63, especially
3. What is your favorite animal?  Quite a few!  Doggys, giraffes, llamas & alpacas ...

- skipped some, so if the numbers don't match, it's not you, lol ;)

5. What is your favorite time of day?  Overnight
6. What was your favorite vacation?  The older I get, the more I miss my childhood vacas @ Manasquan, NJ!  

 8. What is your favorite drink?  Coffee!  Just a regular cuppa coffee, non-dairy, a few ice cubes to take the hot off

 9. What is your favorite flower?  Tulips!

Thursday, November 22, 2012

"And you liked that?!"

My friend Kevin and I have had a running joke for a while now, about that movie that came out called with his name in the title - there's something about ... we need to talk about ... KEVIN!  ;) 

So last night I took a deep breath (as it was on the higher end of the rental scale) and watched it - WOW! Love this movie!

So of course! I HAD TO! tell Kevin I watched "his" movie ;) 

He wanted to be filled in on everything, so, ok, I did that ... when I got to the conclusion, he said, essentially, that while it sounded like a good movie, very interesting, that even with my interest in horror films, detective shows, true crimes ... he couldn't believe I would say I LOVE THIS MOVIE!

It was Tilda Swan's character of Eva.

She's someone I can identify with --

She's alone in her home on a holiday with a cold sandwich. She's by herself even when she's around other people & mebbe that's ok, because when she is around other people, she gets hurt even worse than she already is, or stared at///ignored.  She's walking around looking haunted, the eyes of someone who's lived through a horrific trauma. She needs meds just to survive the everyday.

And then there was the Christmas party scene ...she was actually feeling like her life was normal again and then... when the jerk said the unthinkable ... she didn't fold and agree with him - no! She gathered up whatever shred of dignity she had remaining, and left.  Go, Eva, Go!

I take the ending as hopeful - I really do!  Because she's walking into the light.  Her light is that her son is now going to an adult prison, and my belief in the ending is that she's going to escape: she's going to get in her ratty little car and go far, far away, where no one knows her, and have a better life!

She gives me inspiration doing that.

That, and that she can hug the person who brought her the most pain she ever experienced, she can still love that person in spite of every single piece of pain he ever gave to her -- that gives me a goal to aspire to!

Decide 3 ....

Daily Challenge: Decide three things that you are, three things you never want to be and three things you are practising to be.

3 things I am:  

1.  Writer

2.  Doggy Lover

3.  Elkton Va. resident

3 things I NEVER want to be:

1.  Homeless

2.  A murder victim

3.  Totally busted broke

3 things I'm practicing to be:

1. To never be any of the three never's

2.  To write down on paper, in ink, what's moving through me

3.  Unalone  


Tuesday, November 20, 2012

"If I had my druthers" my Thanksgiving dinner w/ LOTS OF PEOPLE!

 Warm spinach-parmesian cheese dip w/ crackers

Turkey w/ lots and LOTS! of stuffing (it's not dressing - you don't need to dress the bird, you need to stuff it!)

Spiral Ham

Pasta Salad

French-cut green beans ("stringers", my Dad called them :)  )

Duo mashed potatoes - whipped together w/ either turnips or sweet potatoes - or maybe triple mashed potatoes!*AND* (as this is my Thanksgiving ;) )  Tater Tots!

Pumpkin pie w/ real whipped cream

How come??? Can you explain something to me?!

The title of this blog post is something my father used to say to me, when he didn't understand what in the hell I was doing --

-- I've borrowed his phrase not only to title this writing, but as a question to God

You see, God, I was just up on Facebook.  And I caught some things - about my friend Trish - the one who has been with you now for two years ... plus, her birthday was just last month, too, so there were postings re: "Happy Birthday in Heaven!" -- so here's my question, God:

Trish had a husband who had loved her since they were teenagers.

Trish had five children.

Trish was community-active and made an impact on an awful lot of lives in an awful lot of ways - her sphere of influence was extensive! just as extensive as all the people who would call her there friends -- many of them for many, many years!

Trish had a faith that would put many to there knees, realizing that there own faith was shallow.

*** How come, God?!  Can you explain something to me?!  Why is Trish not here, in any of these places where she is so desperately needed and missed?!  We could start with the growing children, but really - any and all of these places need Trish and - she's not here -- HOW COME, GOD?!!  ********

Monday, November 19, 2012

The REAL Occupy movement!

Village lends helping hand to Sandy victims | Video | 7online

You don't care

This after, I went to see the doc - the one who is in charge of administrating my meds ... nice guy! one of my 2 favorite doc's in the Shenandoah Valley :)

Anyway, he and I agreed on this point: that the meds he has prescribed for me have eased my suffering - and thats a very good thing, indeed!  Praise God!!!  -- but also --

He and I both recognize that I'm not back on my game, not back to being myself ... and it's not just my appearance (which is always a big red flag for me personally) -- its that I'm ok with being around people on a "hi, how are you?" basis -- on a "could I have the meatloaf special with ..." basis --- but that I'm not banging down doors to make hangout friends ---

Doc feels that since my suffering is eased, mebbe I'll be able to get to that part ... personally, I think he's an optimist, but -sure, ok -- and, oh yeah --

You don't care that the emotional trauma you caused in my life & my soul has gotten me to not like and mistrust people.  You don't care because (this is multiple choice: you pick the ones that apply to you -- maybe it's more than one --) --

     You're a sociopath.

     You're a con artist, who bled me until I was dry & then you moved on to the next vic.

     You have a hidden ball of shit that I have no clue what it's all about & you won't fill me in.

     You have an addiction that tops everyone & everything.

     You have an untreated mental illness that tops everyone & everything.

     You are jealous.

Well ... mebbe you don't care -- BUT the doc & I do ... & my suffering has been eased (despite you'se people) --

-- Thank you God, indeed!!!!!!

Friday, November 9, 2012

Son says answered prayer will reunite his mom, dad before they die

Son says answered prayer will reunite his mom, dad before they die

"It's a cultural phenomenon."

Viewers can't wait for their dear 'Downton Abbey' | downton, abbey, fans - Entertainment - The Orange County Register

Pixel Posts: Merfy Loves Laundy

Pixel Posts: Merfy Loves Laundy: Our little dog Merfy, can't wait til laundry day. Fresh laundry right out of the dryer, is his invitation to snuggle. Merf is a "Morkie" - ...

"How Deep It Goes" ....

There was a song - I had it on a 45 at one time - I believe it was by Heart - which had an evocative, haunting lyric that sang "No one knows //// how deep it goes ..."  -- that's running through my head right now, as I sit down to type out this thing I want to blog about, so I figured it was a very appropriate title ...

Whenever I work on old resentments and anger and bitterness, I pretty much figure I'm starting with this century - with things that have happened to me over the past, say, half a dozen years ... then, on Weds, I found myself in a conversation with a woman who is at present going through something that I experienced in the 80s and earlier part of the 90s - and as I spoke to her, in a "yeahhh I've been there too sister let me tell you my experience!", I don't know if you could hear it in my voice? but I could feel it deep inside of me, and it was telling me this:

Jean, you have been embittered for a looong time now : its just more ingredients have been added to the soup.

WOW.  I don't even know what else to say ... I tried to ask myself last night that therapeutic question - "and so if you let go of the bitterness around this situation, what would you lose that you don't want to???" - but I couldn't even see the wisp of smoke of an answer. 

In other words:  I don't know how to look at these situations without grief, anger, frustration, and bitterness.

WOW.  I don't even know what else to say ...

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Eerie Scenes From Classic NJ Shore Town Ravaged by Sandy

 Please note if you are going to try to watch this 20/20 special:  it's excellent BUT the Sandy piece is a little clip at the end, with alot of things like Kelly Ripa talking about it (who the hell wants to see HER?!) and just a precious little of Seaside currently - also, if you try to jump the video ahead, you have to see every single dammed advertisement.

Eerie Scenes From Classic NJ Shore Town Ravaged by Sandy: While the results of the presidential election have dominated the attention of much of the country, coastal communities like New Jersey’s Seaside Heights are in a world devoid of politics, still reeling from superstorm Sandy. Watch the full story on Seaside Heights and superstorm Sandy...

Sunday, November 4, 2012

CoCo's good deed!

It is 1.30 in the morning ... and CoCo wakes me up to go out (she taps her toenails on the linoleum in the kitchen -gets me every time!) ...

Hey, when you're 16 years old, sometimes (ok -alot of times!) you have to go OFTEN!

Ok.  I get up ... I put the lights on ... I walk to the living room ... I put on my sneakers; I put on my jacket; I put on her leash; and

CoCo is just lying there.

I'm talking - no enthusiastic tail-wagging door lunge - in fact --

I open the front door and I'm standing there, and she's just laying there.  "C'mon, Coke!"  -- nothing -- and then --

And then my sugar started to crash.

Quickly, I got something in me to 'stem the tide'.  And I thanked her over and over again (with promises of more "Looks like hell!" meatloaf for Sunday) and

She let out a tired sigh and lay down on one of her blankets

After rescuing me


Thursday, November 1, 2012

The "Seven"s (thx to "Hems for Her"!)

seven great things in your life.
1. CoCo sleeping at the front of my desk as I type this out
2. The computer on this desk, that connects me to the world
3. Pictures from my life & from my parents lives
4. Books (such a category includes magazines, of course!)
5. I have a vehicle that works well
6 & 7. The present location of my desk///where I live - specifically, this apartment complex as well as its geographical location - that I open the front door & see my beloved mountains, w/ trees like broccoli's

seven things you lack and covet.
1. F
2. A
3. M
4. I
5. L
6. Y
7. <3
 seven things that make you angry
1. Culture of death, and the amount of time it has gone on despite scientific evidence to the contrary!
2. Looking right in the face of ignorance (as happened in a particular group on Oct. 30, 2012)
3. Things I 'lack and covet'; sleeping alone in a queen-sized bed
4. Betrayal
5. Injustice
6. Alzheimer's disease
7. What being disabled is all about in this country!
seven things that you neglect to do.
1. Laundry
2. Cleaning out things from previous houses I lived in & paying through the nose! for storage fees because of it
3.  DMV
4. Mail
5.  Clearing up clutter
6. Cooking instead of snacking
7.  Looking pretty

seven worldly material desires.
1.  Clothes, especially w/ tremendous details that really reflect me, like that herringbone jacket I saw @ Rose's!
2.  Groceries
3.  Virginia lighthouse license plates - I envy just about everyone I drive past with these!
4. A  new mattress
5. Just give me 60 seconds @ Green Valley Book Fair ;)
6.  A w/d hookup in my apt, so I can sit at my desk on my computer while the wash goes through its gyrations 
7.  The appeal is still there, despite Hurricane Sandy: a home @ the Jersey Shore <3

seven guilty pleasures.
1. Napping
2. Eating outside of my own kitchen, so I don't have cleanup and so I see other persons
3.  Conversely, staying in my own four walls & not going out in the world!
4  Anything to do w/ the seaside! I bought seashells at the yard sale that runs in front of the movie house here, and have decorated my apt w/ them, and that's a guilty pleasure because I know if I just go through my boxes in storage, I have loads of this stuff, and didn't have to buy it !
5.  Certain very expensive groceries, like shopping at an opulent place like Martin's
6. Television 
7. Very expensive, you really should wait for paperback!, books; magazines, some of them, have the prices on them that paperbacks once had!!!

seven things you love about love
1. When it is compatible to live w/ someone under the same roof
2.  Laying in bed being stuck together and having to peel yourselves apart ;)
3. Kissing
4.  Touching///Massages///holding hands in plain sight
5.  Inside jokes
6.  Someone making your coffee & they know the amount of non-dairy creamer and ice to put in it
7.   Holidays