I tried ... I really, really did try!
But the anxiety was already roiling in my stomach as I drove up Rt. 33.
There would be no way! I could sit in a dental chair today for a procedure ;- Hey, at least I was actually able to walk in, explain my problem, and even offer to pay for a missed session!
Here's the thing I want to say about anxiety:
IT DOESN'T SWITCH ITSELF OFF AUTOMATICALLY JUST BECAUSE I'VE REMOVED MYSELF FROM THE SITUATION THAT'S MAKING ME ANXIOUS
And I knew that (but I didn't know if YOU my readers, knew that) ... anyway, I took myself for something good & filling to eat (because sometimes it's not having enough food in my stomach that can make it spiral even more out of control - not that I'd been able to eat much beforehand - yeahhh, too anxious!)
The food was very good, and filling! but it didn't quell the anxiety --
-- which followed me all the way back home (wheee, wheee, wheee, cried the little anxiety pig!)
I tried to lay down.
I had to get up and take some anti-anxiety meds. Because it hasn't stopped - its still whirring and shaking away on the inside. And I bet you --
-- yeahhh: when the meds kick in, I'll be laying back down zzzz
But you know what???
I will more than likely wake up anxiety-free :)
And that is a very, very good thing !!!